I know. [He groans as he leans into Akira, one arm wrapped around his back and chin resting against his shoulder.] We both know I'm not likeable. And I'm honestly not surprised that Dazai-san has taken a liking to you. [You're a weirdo magnet, Akira.]
...you'll be a lot more likeable if you learn to like yourself, first. [It's said carefully, and followed up with a press of his lips to his hairline, and he hefts him to standing.] Let's get you in something comfy.
[Well! If you ask him there's not much to be liked about him! Huff huff. But instead of starting an argument here he just murmurs a denying "shut up" against the fabric of Akira's shirt and stands up with his help.]
Sure. [He's done with hanging around naked. He takes a deep breath, bracing himself for the upcoming struggle and then, nudges Akira towards the door.] Let's be done with this.
[He could make hanging around naked worth Goro's while, but he'll wait until he's not tired enough to sleep on his own to wear him out. Wink wonk.]
[Another hum, and he guides him out to the bedroom area, setting him on the edge of the mattress and moving to get him clothes. He presents him with underthings, a pair of sweatpants, and a choice of two shirts-- one is his own, the other is Goro's.] Pants first, yeah?
[Unfortunately they will have to go celibate for a bit. At least until his wound has closed properly. Honestly, it's a good thing that they had agreed to keep two beds instead of one -- this way there won't be a risk for them to get tangled up with each other and.
..Oh, the realization of the situation fully sinks in as he sits on the mattress. Feeling suddenly colder than before.]
Of course. And then bandages, obviously. [He huffs, extending his leg out to kick Akira's ankles a bit, eyes squinting at the shirts. You know which one he's going to end up picking.]
[Don't underestimate his ability to keep Akechi still while getting him off. He'd take it as a challenge.]
[But anyway-- he laughs at the kicking, shaking his head and tossing his own shirt at Goro's head.] Hey! Don't beat up the guy who's supposed to be nursing you back to 100%. Pick your feet up. [He stoops to let Goro step into boxers without much movement.]
[Oh definitely. He'll be the most prissy pillow princess out there.]
He catches the shirt and places it next to him on the mattress. Better sweat on that rather than on his own. The joke... does lighten the mood a little, making this process of getting dressed feel a little less humiliating than it would otherwise. He steps into the underwear, and bends down as much as his body allows without discomfort to help it to slide on him.]
If I didn't know you any better I'd say you're enjoying this.
[He moves upward and angles his body so Goro can hold onto his shoulders while he hoists his butt off the bed and sets him back down covered by the underlayer. Grinning, he moves away to get a roll of clean bandages and medical tape.] Would it bother you if I was? You know I like taking care of people.
[It's almost funny how fast they've become adjusted to this situation. He hoists his body up just enough that Akira can slide the undergarment past his fat ass. This whole thing is going to be a routine for them rather sooner than later. Ugh, great.
He sheds the towel from around his shoulders and rolls his eyes briefly, huffing in a frustration.]
It would fit your savior complex. However, I'd imagine there's a limits to your altruism, too.
It's not altruism, [Gently, and he bumps their foreheads together.] It's selfishness, because I know I'm the only one who gets this permission from you. It's possessiveness for the same. [With their foreheads still together, he opens his eyes to look directly into Goro's.]
I want you to reach a point that you're comfortable enough to trust me implicitly. Without worrying about when it'll end.
[His lips are pursed together into a small pout as Akira leans in for the further contact. There's a warm sensation in his guts, which tingles uncomfortably. Because it's both what he wants and doesn't want to hear. Akira surely knows how desperate he's for the recognition and love, while also not believing to be worthy any of it.
The conflict is reflected in his eyes as he stares back at Akira's, staying quiet for a few seconds too long before, huffing out air.]
Your problems are my problems. Is it not how this works? [You know, the relationship thing? After all, his current problem is very much Akira's at the moment.
Akechi turns his head to the side after the brief kiss on his nose. ]
Hurry up with the bandages. Or is it in your intentions to keep me half-naked whole night?
[His expression stays blank, but his core tenses at the suggestion. No, his problems aren't anyone else's problems but his own. Least of all Akechi Goro's, who has had nothing but problems to work through his whole life. After a moment, he smiles.] They don't have to be.
[Moving to replace the bandages, he keeps his eyes on anything but Goro's face.]
[That.. doesn't feel very fair or equal. He's not really sure how to feel about Akira being the one holding his own fortress up all by himself while also dealing with Akechi's shit. Self-sacrificing fool until the very end.
Clearly, this will not cause them any issues in the longer run.
Akechi raises his arms up and places them to rest against Akira's shoulders, giving him more room to work with the bandaid. He stays silent during the procedure and when it's done he reaches to grab the shirt Akira brought him just a moments ago.]
You'll have to deal with sleeping on your own for a bit. I assume you'll be able to handle that.
[What an unfortunate thing, to want to help someone who doesn't want help! Familiar...,]
[He smiles, regardless, even if it doesn't quite reach his eyes. He does appreciate Goro's interest, at least, and it's not that he thinks him incapable or that he doesn't trust him, he simply cannot be perceived as anything but a pillar of support. Eventually he'll eat shit and crumble, but today he's still standing.]
[He's efficient with his bandaging, and helps Goro wrangle his shirt back on, putting his lips to one of his eyebrows when he pops his head through the neck hole.] It'll be tough, but somehow I'll survive the inability to cuddle for a while.
[He sees you Mr. Hero. This is one reason why Akechi hoped he could've avoided telling Akira about this incident all together. He doesn't want to add any more burden and contribute to your downfall. Not like this.
Even though he's everything but in the mood, Akechi pulls Akira closer by his shirt to kiss him on the lips. It's wet and deep, despite being brief.]
That's all you're going to get in a while. [He murmurs against Akira's lips before pulling away.] I suppose this is the best time for you to cash out the "seeing others" card.
[Fat chance, buddy. If you two are gonna be close and intimate, Akira expects to be made privy to these sorts of things.]
[Suffice to say he's stunned into breathless silence by the kiss, and licks his lips as he's freed, idly smoothing his shirt. The second statement sits a little sour in his gut and he frowns, fidgeting with the hem of his shirt before looking back up.] You think I'm so thirsty I'd fuck around just because you're hurt?
Goro, [A bit firmer, and he leans upward to bonk their foreheads together.] You getting shot does not mean you're weak. You recovering from it doesn't, either.
Then what you'd call this? [He pulls away from the contact, not really in mood for physical touch.] It's hindering our lives plenty. If I can't give you what you want it's only normal to look for it elsewhere.
That's stupid. What else would I be if not human. [He says, despite knowing very well what Akira means. Akechi hates the idea of being perceived as anything but perfection. Always overworking himself and overachieving to hide the cracks behind the surface.
But the latter part makes him withdraw a little. 'Idiot', he almost barks but instead settles on disapproving frown.]
Well, that'll be on you. [A huffed answer, and with that Akechi lies down on the bed and pulls a blanket all while making sure to face away from Akira.
A blind epitome of your own concept of perfection, [He offers, quiet and not overly harsh, despite the words. He stays still when Akechi curls away from him and hunches into his blanket, sighing and smiling faintly despite himself.]
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Date: 2023-07-22 04:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-07-22 05:01 pm (UTC)...you'll be a lot more likeable if you learn to like yourself, first. [It's said carefully, and followed up with a press of his lips to his hairline, and he hefts him to standing.] Let's get you in something comfy.
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Date: 2023-07-22 05:54 pm (UTC)Sure. [He's done with hanging around naked. He takes a deep breath, bracing himself for the upcoming struggle and then, nudges Akira towards the door.] Let's be done with this.
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Date: 2023-07-22 08:16 pm (UTC)[Another hum, and he guides him out to the bedroom area, setting him on the edge of the mattress and moving to get him clothes. He presents him with underthings, a pair of sweatpants, and a choice of two shirts-- one is his own, the other is Goro's.] Pants first, yeah?
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Date: 2023-07-22 09:08 pm (UTC)..Oh, the realization of the situation fully sinks in as he sits on the mattress. Feeling suddenly colder than before.]
Of course. And then bandages, obviously. [He huffs, extending his leg out to kick Akira's ankles a bit, eyes squinting at the shirts. You know which one he's going to end up picking.]
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Date: 2023-07-23 11:33 pm (UTC)[But anyway-- he laughs at the kicking, shaking his head and tossing his own shirt at Goro's head.] Hey! Don't beat up the guy who's supposed to be nursing you back to 100%. Pick your feet up. [He stoops to let Goro step into boxers without much movement.]
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Date: 2023-07-24 12:05 am (UTC)He catches the shirt and places it next to him on the mattress. Better sweat on that rather than on his own. The joke... does lighten the mood a little, making this process of getting dressed feel a little less humiliating than it would otherwise. He steps into the underwear, and bends down as much as his body allows without discomfort to help it to slide on him.]
If I didn't know you any better I'd say you're enjoying this.
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Date: 2023-07-24 01:23 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-07-24 06:18 pm (UTC)fatass. This whole thing is going to be a routine for them rather sooner than later. Ugh, great.He sheds the towel from around his shoulders and rolls his eyes briefly, huffing in a frustration.]
It would fit your savior complex. However, I'd imagine there's a limits to your altruism, too.
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Date: 2023-07-30 11:13 pm (UTC)I want you to reach a point that you're comfortable enough to trust me implicitly. Without worrying about when it'll end.
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Date: 2023-07-30 11:31 pm (UTC)The conflict is reflected in his eyes as he stares back at Akira's, staying quiet for a few seconds too long before, huffing out air.]
You are setting yourself up to a disappointment.
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Date: 2023-08-04 06:17 am (UTC)[He shifts and kisses the tip of Akechi’s nose.] So stop worrying about my problems. You have enough of your own, I think.
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Date: 2023-08-04 09:12 am (UTC)Akechi turns his head to the side after the brief kiss on his nose. ]
Hurry up with the bandages. Or is it in your intentions to keep me half-naked whole night?
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Date: 2023-08-13 02:30 am (UTC)[Moving to replace the bandages, he keeps his eyes on anything but Goro's face.]
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Date: 2023-08-13 01:14 pm (UTC)Clearly, this will not cause them any issues in the longer run.
Akechi raises his arms up and places them to rest against Akira's shoulders, giving him more room to work with the bandaid. He stays silent during the procedure and when it's done he reaches to grab the shirt Akira brought him just a moments ago.]
You'll have to deal with sleeping on your own for a bit. I assume you'll be able to handle that.
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Date: 2023-08-15 02:16 am (UTC)[He smiles, regardless, even if it doesn't quite reach his eyes. He does appreciate Goro's interest, at least, and it's not that he thinks him incapable or that he doesn't trust him, he simply cannot be perceived as anything but a pillar of support. Eventually he'll eat shit and crumble, but today he's still standing.]
[He's efficient with his bandaging, and helps Goro wrangle his shirt back on, putting his lips to one of his eyebrows when he pops his head through the neck hole.] It'll be tough, but somehow I'll survive the inability to cuddle for a while.
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Date: 2023-08-15 07:47 am (UTC)Even though he's everything but in the mood, Akechi pulls Akira closer by his shirt to kiss him on the lips. It's wet and deep, despite being brief.]
That's all you're going to get in a while. [He murmurs against Akira's lips before pulling away.] I suppose this is the best time for you to cash out the "seeing others" card.
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Date: 2023-08-18 05:34 pm (UTC)[Suffice to say he's stunned into breathless silence by the kiss, and licks his lips as he's freed, idly smoothing his shirt. The second statement sits a little sour in his gut and he frowns, fidgeting with the hem of his shirt before looking back up.] You think I'm so thirsty I'd fuck around just because you're hurt?
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Date: 2023-08-18 06:24 pm (UTC)That's not it. I already told you I don't want you to hold yourself back. [a pause, then he adds] At least not because of me being weak.
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Date: 2023-08-18 06:26 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2023-08-19 09:46 pm (UTC)I don't mind waiting until you're up for intimacy.
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Date: 2023-08-19 10:16 pm (UTC)But the latter part makes him withdraw a little. 'Idiot', he almost barks but instead settles on disapproving frown.]
Well, that'll be on you. [A huffed answer, and with that Akechi lies down on the bed and pulls a blanket all while making sure to face away from Akira.
He is, in fact, touched by the gesture.]
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Date: 2023-08-20 09:38 am (UTC)Goodnight, Goro.