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[chemex]

because i am a ho and i write a ho. this post will probably pretty exclusively be expiation shuake fuckery, no pun intended, and i'm leaving it unlocked solely so it can, if i'm brave enough, be used as bonus AC. don't be weird, i'm specifically making a separate post for nsfw content so nobody has to see it if they aren't looking for it.

anyway, cw for smut and a lot of kinks, some of which are probably poorly negotiated if discussed at all. you've been warned.

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[murderingjustice]

[The response does manage to calm him down a bit, the hiccups and sobs quieting down while tears still remained in his eyes. Good. He was afraid there for a moment that he had somehow managed to rope Akira into something he found unpleasant, forcing him to entertain his macabre fantasies.

Overall, he's not even sure where all this is coming from.
Are the tears reaction from almost passing out? Or from him not not being able to allow himself to go under? Or perhaps from the notion of submitting to someone else, allowing himself to be owned? Maybe all of them, or maybe it's something completely else. Because again, he can't stop thinking what she would've thought.

Goro peels his face off Akira's chest, lifting his chin up to search for contact.]

I.. never thought I'd be doing this with anyone. Or that I'd f-feel like this.

[chemex]

[Akira's own eyes are a little misty-- he's a bleeding heart, and Goro being this overwhelmed pinches something in his chest. He smiles, regardless, bringing a hand up to cup Goro's cheek.]

Feelings suck. Like, a lot. Is "this" being in a relationship, or specifically the choking?

[murderingjustice]

[Closing his eyes, Goro leans in to the touch, looking to be cradled in Akira's arms. It's not first time he's shown vulnerability around Akira, but it is probably first time he's seeking for the comfort and love -- nearly begging for it.

It's in moment like these when all of his rage and anger towards the world and his own person, leaving him only to focus on Akira and the sound of his beating heart. Filling him with knowledge about the fact that he, indeed, does love this person.]

Relationship, idiot. [He coughs.]...and sex.

[chemex]

[Akira rumbles a soft laugh, reaching his other hand up to hold the other side of Goro's jaw. His thumbs smooth against his cheeks, pushing away remaining tears, and his tone is gentle, arguably viscous with fondness.]

I'm glad you trust me with both.

[murderingjustice]

.. Only you. [He whispers softly, sincerity seeping through his words. Akira is the only one Goro's ever truly wanted and trusted, only one he could ever think of giving part of himself like this.

His stupid fated rival.

Goro sighs quietly, feeling so loved and cared for here with Akira holding him and wiping away his tears. There's a dull headache growing from the crying and his eyes feel heavy and sore. He could very well fall asleep here. If it wasn't for one fact.]


.. Let's continue. Please. I want to feel you.

[chemex]

[He rumbles again, keeping his hold on his face and moving to kiss him, gently.] You sure? You look tired.

[murderingjustice]

[Goro brings one hand behind Akira's neck, pulling him closer as the kiss. He whines when the kiss ends, giving the other's lips a quick lick as if to chase the taste.]

Yes. I want to.. Besides. [He clears his voice a bit, trying to summon previous cockiness to his expression.] You weren't going to stop until I'm fully yours.

[chemex]

[His grin sharpens, and he ducks back to Goro's lips to bite the lower, gently.] You know how to stop me if it's too much.

[And he kisses him again, this time licking into his mouth and deepening the kiss as he leans into him, intent to knock him over.]

[murderingjustice]

[Goro uses the hand wrapped behind Akira's neck to pull himself up to meet the lip, a weepy whine leaving from him at the gentle nipple on his lower lip.]

I would let you fuck me unconscious. [He's only half-serious with that one. While the thought of being completely out of it and let Akira to have his way with him. But then again, losing the control completely like that is also intimidating. So, who knows. Maybe they can work up to it. But he's getting ahead of himself.

Most of Goro's weight is placed on Akira's arms, so when he leans down Goro goes with him. With his back hitting the mattress again, Goro opens his mouth, tongue darting out to tangle together with Akira's, indulging in the taste and sensation.]